bulbous, prominent, hooked, aquiline, protruding, humped,
beakish.
a feature used for something as simple as smell has turned into a highly scrutinized aesthetic feature.
each culture has a different idea of what perfect looks like. societies and media deem what is desirable.
these perspectives are taught to us at a young age. but once we grow out of our baby face...hit 13...
our unique facial features become more apparent. our bone structure seemingly changes before our own eyes.
that's when the insecurities creep in, begin to take root.
something i never thought about before was now at the forefront of my mind throughout my youth.
i learned my "good side", which side of my nose appears less large. (it's the right)
i avoided looking at my side profile. i exclusively took pictures from my right side.
i subconsciously would rub on the hump of my nose, press it down.
as if i was hoping to train the cartilage to shrink by applying frequent pressure.
my likeness has been compared to that of a bird before. not with any mal intent but just simply stated as fact.
people insisted its not because of my nose, that my nose is beautiful.
yet this reality struck something in me, an insecurity which i had thought i quelled.
it didn’t keep me up at night but it weighed heavy enough on my mind for me to think about it from time to time.
i’m not exactly sure when the switch in my mind occurred. maybe it’s my frontal lobe finally fusing together...
and while the insecurity certainly hasn’t vanished in its entirety, i’m not sure if they ever do, i now find comfort in the unique contours of my face. i no longer have the desire to change a part of me. the realization is freeing.
i will be keeping my beak.
about_beakish
produced and shot
by becca morency​
edited and written
by becca morency
3_8_2025
hair and makeup
by becca morency
beakish_mp4
music credits_ttyl by morabeza tobacco